Writing Gold and Me
I always feel tempted to be the one who writes deep messages. I want to be the one who evokes those emotions that almost none can evoke. I find myself falling short of that image because I'm too afraid to discover those emotions in myself.
Maybe that's okay. I don't have to be the one who overjoys someone or kills their mood. I believe that good writing is writing that gets a point across, but maybe sometimes you just have to write to get your feelings out. That's okay, too.
I read through some of my old journals and find I'm not quite the writer I thought I was. There are some things I find interesting in them, though.
It feels good to hurt for a while.
That was something I wrote at a time when everything felt bittersweet. I was angry at the world. I thought it was angry at me. Turns out that I was just scared and confused. Just like most people. Hurting can be cathartic at times, but I wanted to hurt all the time. I deserve much better than that.
I have a saying. I don't think it's very original, but I like it. "Even if you fall down, it's the way that you get back up that matters." It's something that I value a lot. I've fallen many times. Most the time, I didn't think I could recover. Other people didn't think I could recover. Here I am, though, back and better than ever.
I'll probably post a blog later about my day. Until then, toodles!